~my bloggie~

Sniff tired...

2004-10-23T19:50:00.000+08:00

phewww just woke up from my deep sleep... haha wanted to go to the gym just now! but arghh I overslept and I decided to sleep all the way till dinner time just now lolx... totally ignored tessa's sms soweee tessa! >_< *covers my head*

hee but oh well I kinda restored my energy already I'm totally amped up now! been really tired the past few days cos I kept rushing the pw assignments... now all that's left to do is the oral presentantion and the group project file... haha everything's in a mess I hope I can sort everything out in time lolx...

Arr! the chinese A level exam is comming up! but I still have so much pw to do... hmm I think I better not just concentrate on pw or I'm surely dead... yer! I better get some chinese done everyday before I do my pw... can't afford to fail this exam lolx... (everyone knows that I can't stand chinese) all I have to do is to tahan 15 more days with it and then its sayonara to exams! haha but I dunno what I'll do witht the language thou... its just like my teacher said.. its kinda like a waste to just forget it... oh well I think of what I wanna do when I DO pass the test lolx... hmm lets see... what should I do? the exam's on the 5th of november... so todays 23 oct! means I have.... 13 more days! oh my.... hmmmm what should I do! better plan tonight.. dun wanna crash and burn again hahax...

Yupps... anyway I was in the library today doing my pw and I was so distracted! lolx sheng gao was like there saying "danny dun like that I know you not interested in doing de" lolx.... well *looks at the floor guilty* hahax I was a lill distracted... lol... cos I was like looking and looking at all the.......... ahhh! *slaps myself* lolx... mabye I was thinking too much hehe

ooo anyways! later going to meet Max!! yay haven't talked to him in like so long! haha going to the market again to eat supper together hehe...

Bacckkkk!

2004-10-22T21:10:00.000+08:00

Yay! I'm backkkk haha I haven't been here in ages.... okies okie well yer just did finish my promotional exam not too long ago haha I got really sucky grades... and I'm like the worst in my class now... so I dunno... the teachers are like picking the hell outta me... jsut today miss sim was like asking me so many questions left and right and I had to think so much.... ughhhh >_< so baddd they all bulliee mee...

hahax oh well serves me right for doing so bad on my papers... arh hahax I've been thinking... my blog looks so sad! well I orginally designed it to be happy, but then I dunno I kinda made it all black and sad looking hahax ^^"

hee Judo trainings have started again! I feel so cool now... I dunno I feel like my life is not complete without actually throwing somebody.... I'm a judoaddict >_< die die I'm so violent... hope I dun go and find fights in the army hehe

arr! Been going to the gym more! yea... I decided if I wanna get more mass I need to go to the gym more frequently... lol but everytime I tell tessa that she's like always asking me to get a tan ^^" sniff am I that white? :( mmmxx hope I dun look too ghey... like a small boy? *sulk*

yer... anyway haha I always include something about.... ms! yer... been talking to her recently... but not alot... I wonder if I should call her again? arr I dunno seems kinda awkaward for me to call her actually, like she knows I'm trying to stick to her... I wonder if her eye twitches everytime I call?

Failureee...

2004-09-19T13:23:00.000+08:00

arghhh! yesterday night was a total failure... sniff I'm so upset over it... :(

okay... so I set out to call ms at I think 8:30 yesterday... (after hesistaing for over 30 mins ^^") lol... butttt sighhh... kinda wanted to chat with her... but I ended up screwing myeslef to the ground... sniff...

She said... she had a physics question to ask me... and I said okay... sighhhh and it was such an easy problem too... I can't believe I couldn't answer it! well so she said she'll go try and give me sometime to think bout it and if she still can't get it she will call me backkk..... arrhg... I wish I could have solved the problem there and then sighhh :(

Well needless to say she didn't call back hahax, she smsed me instead and said that she's going to take a nap first.... anyway at that time I was really bummed that I couldn't solve it... I still remember what she said to me "its kinda a really simple question, but you're blowing it out of proportion" lolx.... well she did come online later... but only for a few secs... cos she said there was something wrong with her computer...

Sniff... I seem to be someone where she can ask her homework questions... mmx... I think... once I'm unable to answer them... I'll have no more reason to exist... den... mabye she wun talk to me anymore?... arrh..... I dunno..... sighh..... mabye I should call her one more time to see if that's really what I am to her...? mmx. but when...?... :(

Well on another note... my d/ling speeds are kinda good these days hehe, going to finish d/ling tenjo tenge soon! yea!! can't wait to see it, it has really cool fighting scenes... okie okies I think I better go now hahax... my nus friend is comming soon..

Confused again...

2004-09-16T01:40:00.000+08:00

haha okay I'm confused again... mxx... just a few days ago ms messaged me over the hp again... she told me that she dyed her hair.. mmx... I was kinda confused thou... I thought she'd given me that "warning" already and I won't hear from her forever again?

Well I replied her message... but she didn't reply back... guess she sent it by mistake... mmx mabye I should call her this weekend to see what's her real reaction..

Lol okay today I was like almost dead when I went to school... I had this super big black rings around my eyes and I look like a panda >_<... I really shocked one girl today lolx... she was from S1D I think... yuppy... thomas's class.. cos she was like outside the toilet and I was waiting for sheng gao to come out... so I was doing => o_o..... and staring into the thin air, but she was like infront of me and lol... she kinda thought I was staring at her hahax with such black eyes summore... =x ooo man so paiseh ^^""

Arr... going to download finish my samurai 7 soon... hehe can't wait to watch it.. Tenjo Tenge too!... hahax, but I haven't been studying these few days *hangs head in air* hahax I hope tommorow will be better... now that the pw is almost over... oh well... time to sleep! nite nite! >_<............

mmx... is it a warning?

2004-09-11T19:41:00.000+08:00

yeahh! just came back from my judo grading... lol... it was so cool hahax... I was like a loner there and like everyone noticed straight away... one guy from nyjc only lol den they all started talking to me... I talked to 2 RI guys and this SJI guy called sherman, lol he was really friendly... and there was this auntie from Island Judo Club who keep trying to feed me lolx ^^" she was like giving bread to all her members and I was just standing there den she was like asking "are you hungry? are you hungry?" lol... well I'm really touched that mr tan and mrs poh came to accompany me for the grading sniff sniff >_< I must really go thank all of you arr...

okay okay anyway I went thru the kata very smothly, cos I partnered this very pro SJI guy lol I didn't even apply force and I seem to throw him already, he was like a jumping expert hahax sherman's introduction ^^" okay the terrifying part was the sparing part, cos I got paired up with this 100kg+ RI guy lol he was kinda like Andre haha. well I was lucky he used harai goshi (sweeping hip) and that's my specialty at countering, so I countered with tani otoshi 3 times and got 2 yokos, den I pinned him down and got a wazari ^^"... well the last one wasn't so clear cos we both fell at the same time so I didn't who the wazari was for oh well lol but I still won hahax ^^" phew! He was really strong thou, he twisted my arm a little when I was going for the tani otoshi but I held on.. arr it's really pain now... oh well... no provional status for me! hehe

right... just 2 days ago I got this strange question from ms... well let you all see it... (its been slightly edited, but the conversation starting and ending was the same)

ms : i got a qn for u, r friends more important to u, or girlfriend?
Dan: har?? why do you suddenly ask me this? haha taking a survey for your pw?
ms: which one's more important? just tell me
Dan: erm erm ^^" *sweats*, you mean... if lets say there comes a time when I can only have one?
Ms: err, not that serious
Ms: sort of, ok so which one
Dan: I'm not very sure. but I think its girlfriend ^^"
Ms: hmm, icic
Dan: lol what survey are you doing? hehe my friend asked me that too, he was doing on some marriage thingy hahax
Ms: but,
Ms: gf,
Ms: u break up
Ms: friends, more probable to stay
Ms: like friends forever, rite?
Dan: hmmmx... wah, your survey is really difficult hahax... mmx
Dan but den... I dun think I'll be able to love my friends as much as a gf... cos I think my gf will do the same for me? hahax I dunno I think so
Ms: oic, ya but.... hmm.... dunno
Dan: hahax, well... actually... friends and gf... they are both friends, a gf, is just like a special type of friend, yuppy
Dan: hahax you like someone in sch? hehe
Ms: no
Ms: no one cute
Ms: so sad
Ms: nway i gotta go now
Ms: cya, bye
Dan: erm okie den! hahax what a strange survey you're doin hahax, take care den! see ya!

mmx what is the purpose of asking me this? haha is it really a survey? well I was kinda bluffing that I thought it was a survey so I could stall time... mmx... well mabye its a warning... she was like trying to convince me that friends are better... she said like "friends are forever" or something... and she like asked me pretty hastily... so she doesn't wanna talk... sigh... mabye she's had enough?

yawwwnn

2004-09-07T09:43:00.000+08:00

Ahhh... just woke up a couple of minutes ago... hee... arr yesterday night was such a bad night... haha I mean in the study sense... I spent like all my time on the net talking and talking... sss... I think thoday morning I better study hard... to make up for my slacking yesterday...

haha was talking to huijuan last night about my judo experiencce with philjin, lol I got really beat by him... it was 11-2 I think.... 2 me of course... haha... well after the 5th round I know I couldn't win anymore, I was so drained of energy that I couldn't even win phil in newaza >_< okay okay... but then I went to try to observe him more in the next 6 rounds and I found out many things hehe.. okay okay but I won't bore anyone with the details... but basically I'm going to develop a move called Kaiten... hahax need to do some research on it first and check if the physics are right..

mmx listening to josh groban's music now... been listening to his singing since 2 days ago when I started ripping his album from the net hehe, so niceee! okay okay but I'm broke so I cant buy his full album.. oh well >_>

hehe watched full metal panic just now... so cool ^^" the guy inside is so devoid of emotions... haha kinda wish I was like him.. oh well ... okie okie me gotta stop crapping hahax... offf to work!

Sniff repeat post

2004-09-06T18:23:00.000+08:00

arrr! this is a repeat post... darnnnn just now wrote that post... got deleted!! :'( sniffx....

okay okay let me just continue the story from just now... so that day I didn't talk to her... but this is what she said to me... well my nick was "sniff I miss you, please don't ignore me.."

sooo she said:
haa who do u miss
ur gf?
hmm ok u busy
talk to u later them
then
gotta play the piano
cya
bye

yer... I was kinda bitched that I missed the chance to talk to her... so I kinda took out my frustration by talking to tessa... sowee tessa!... I was complaining to her so muchhh..

mmx... to my surprise she came back later at night... and I had a 1 hour chat with her on the msn hehe... kinda happy... but can't help feeling that I'm actualling disturbing her... I think I'm assing her too much... its like verytime she's online I'm always messagin her... well she's kinda online now and yer... I messaged her... but all she said was hi... and no more response?... oh well... mabye she's busy..

so anyway she went online again mysteriously on sunday afternoon... and we had a really REALLy short conversation (the ones witht he "=" are the words she said)

heya!
= :)
hahax, doing research on your essay?
= typing it
ahhh I see... okies I think I betta not disturb you den! ^^" talk to ya another time when you're not busy hee
= wat u doing
haha me slacking around, just downloading josh groban's music hee, have you heard it?
= heard one or two i think
= nice singer
haha yeah! he rocks hahax I've only got one song thou >_< trying to get his album from the net now hehe
where do you hear your music from?
= i dont really listen to music
= my cousin's bf burns some for me
hahax except your own right? :P
= n i got some real old ones
= tats all
= gotta go now k
= bye
hahax
= take care
sure
= cya
take care den ^^
see ya

I don't know... am I really irritating? like keep trying to contact her... I don't know if she's resisting or not... I'll never know... but I have the hunch that she is... cos yer... she doesn't like reply my letters or smses anymore... sigh...

oh well.. she's not answering me on the msn anymore.. think I'll just sit here and wait den..

More thoughts... boring right

2004-09-06T17:58:00.000+08:00

haha... I'm thinking again... very boring right... hope I'm not boring everyone out who's reading this ^^"...

yer... okay she's online now... but in away mode, haha yer its quite obvious right? if not I wun be here typing hehe... yer okay so I think I should continue on what happened that day.. so yeah... it was her and I missed my chance to talk to her... was pretty sad.... I still remember what she said....
okay my nick was " sniff I miss you so much, don't ignore me" yer.. okay you all know what I mean by that nick hahax ^^"... so she said...

haha who do you miss?
your gf?
ok you busy
well gotta go play the piano now
talk to you later
cya
bye

well I was going to explode den cos I was like...... "aHHHH! how could I miss that chance?" so I smsed her something hahax... well mabye I should have done that... I think I said something like....

"sorry sorry I was lying down on the bed, so I didn't see your message. haha as for who I miss, I think mabye you know =x, okay okay don't disturb you already, hahax know you're getting more and more busy these days"

arr.... that was such a bad move... =_= *slaps myself with a frying pan*....

okay... there was no reply after that... (yer she usually doesn't reply my smses anyways... ) so I was a little sad... den I was like ranting in tessa's msn screen about how stupid I was. Sorrry sorrrry tessa!! *bows*

mmx but I didn't go completely crazy... cos later on... to me surprise she came back online!... yer... and I talked to her for... around an hour... lol... kinda happy... my mom wasn't, cos she kept calling me and asking me stuff but I didn't answer properly.. ^^" lol guess I was too engrossed in talking to ms...

hmmx okay soo that's that... and the next day... on sunday... she came online again... hahax dunno why she come online so many times this week ^^... welll I tried to talk to her again, I was scared thou... its like everytime she comes online I'll try to talk to her... think I'm really disturbing her and assing her... welll anywayyyy here's how the conversation went... it was quite short... (the bold ones are the ones that she said)

heya!
:)
hahax, doing research on your essay?
typing it
ahhh I see... okies I think I betta not disturb you den! ^^" talk to ya another time when you're not busy hee
wat u doing
haha me slacking around, just downloading josh groban's music hee, have you heard it?
heard one or two i think
nice singer
haha yeah! he rocks hahax I've only got one song thou >_< trying to get his album from the net now hehe
where do you hear your music from?
i dont really listen to music
my cousin's bf burns some for me
hahax except your own right? :P
n i got some real old ones
tats all
gotta go now k
bye
hahax
take care
sure
cya
take care den ^^
see ya

okay... looks like it was longer than expected... hmmx... so she wasn't that busy after all ^^" ? yer.... there was another conversation later thou but I dun think I'll torture anyone to read it hahax...

haix... so I dunno... I think there's no feeling about me in her... think she can't even remember any stuff I told her at all... haix... what should I do? *thinks hard...*

okay anyway, I just cameback from judo. hahax I fought philjin lolx... i think I fought him 11 times... he totally kicked my butt... I won him twice only by luck... so after the 5th round I think I couldn't win anymore... so I decided to go learn as much as possible from it... well I did learn something very important hehe... its an idea which I'm developing now... its called a "circuit of attack" hahax... alright I wun bore you all...

mmx... doesn't look like ms is going to "unaway" her msn anytime soon... oh well think I'll just sit here an wait den...

Yay~!! So happie!....... mabye?

2004-09-05T13:32:00.000+08:00

Yeaaa! yesterday was a kinda screwy day for me hehe... well yer like I said before I got home from judo pratice... den I was really tired and a little frustrated about (you know what) so when i decided to eat dinner I wanted to watch full metal panic to get some laughs outta me...

so I was eating dinner and den someone kept messaging me... I was like ughh "can't they see I'm eating dinner? why still keep messagin me?" den after awhile i was pretty irritated so I went to press alt+tab to check out who was "disturbin me" well... I kinda regret ignoring the messages... cos.... the person who was messaging me was...! ms!

-=to be continued..... cos... someone has just signed in on msn =x hehe=-

Thinking more....

2004-09-04T17:01:00.000+08:00

phew... just came home from judo pratice hehe I was great! I totally finished revising all the orange belt kata... hehe... all thanks to yan ren who stayed around with me for like 2 and a half hours... really thank you man... :'( sniffx me really touched..

hahax before I came home I finally met shiqin on the way hehe... we've been wanting to meet up for a reallly long time but since we both take 4As it was like almost impossible... hehe told him how to repair his spiked shoes... it was pretty banged up, very intersting though haha shoes with spikes below mmx I wonder how wearing one feels like? hee, he also showed me his plans for his inventions haha, it looks like he's got lotsa time... he thought of somesorta magnetic shoes hahax so that eveyrone would be able to get perfect fitting shoes and all... hehe pretty intersting hahax..

uhh so tired now ^^" just now really strained when I fought with yanren fight so many times lolx... well he's improved alot hahax not so easy to throw him already ^^ mmx... think its time to start my revision hahax... yay! finally have time! lol oo yerr there was someone who asked me if I could join the dance club yesterday cos they need guys ^^"... but me? in dance club? >_o arr haha I'm like really ugly and weak dunno if I can really help em... oh well gotta give them my answer soon I guess...

Right... on another note... I've been thinking about you know what again... haha its the first time I actually went around and gather advice from people... on whether I should give up? hahax.. mmx here's what some of em said

1) right his one is just to the right of this blog hahax inside my shoutbox... edna asked me if I could wait? cos i wasn't like getting any "response" from her... so can I really wait? well... of course she's telling me to be patient... but den well I dun think I am very hahax mabye to a certain extent only? ^^"

2) my friend xh said... :" you must follow your heart. So if you don't like her already, you'll automatically stop chasing her", I dunno sounds really sketchy... I dun think I'll "eventually" stop liking her...

but then again.. there are so many girls out there... why do I like her so much? Is there something really special about her? sigh... mabye its just my mentality?... mmx... and liking someone... is not like learning something... I can't just like... put lotsa effort into it and it will flow... I mean... I can't make her like me... its just who I am that will attract or not attract people... so... there isn't really much I can do huh... there's already no chemisty....

Yayyy new skin!

2004-09-02T18:44:00.000+08:00

okayy... hahax hope you all like my new skin! well... I orginally wanted it to be a really happy skin.. but I" dunno everything I seem to draw seems to come out really sad and dark lol... I can't seem to draw everything nice that's bright and chery ^^"

hehe I met Clara on my way to school today hehe, she's really fun to talk with hahax, I used to think that she's really fierce so I always didn't talk to her =x hahax sowee clara! But grrr! I'm not from banndddd!! (not that there's anything wrong with band thou) hahax ok la clara I know your singing very nice :p

mmx yeah she asked me a question today that nobody has really asked me before hahax... she asked if I was going to give up on... yanno ^^" well I answered that I was running out of stamina, and I think I'm going to give up, no I dun think I'm going to give up, ahhh I dunno. Lol okay I was pretty sure yesterday that I was on the edge of giving up... But someth seems to keep pulling me in... why aren't I giving up? I put in so much effort and still there is no result...

den I went to the chem lecture with wanlin and elanor, well hahax I had a conversation about her again somehow.... well I dunno elanor was asking me if I had a girlfriend ^^" hahax den I said nobody will like me de, but then I said I liked someone blah blah blah... and den she said "I wonder how it will be like to be in a relationship?" den I said I dunno ^^" and its probably not fun... mmx.... if its not fun... what am I doing anyway? why am I after her...

hmm what is it that I like so much about her anyway? I am not sure also... but... I always have the feeling to be with her... I wonder just how long will this feeling last? haha oh well anyway I'm planning to call her this saturday night... mmx hope everything goes well den...

Ar oh well lol anyway after that I went in a rampage in the canteen trying to find sparing partners for judo cos offical training's over and I still need to pratice for my grading... well I was pretty surprised... although I;m the only idiot who was going for the grading alot of my friends were willing to help me out over the holidays.... sniff sniff... >_< thanks guys....

alright! time for me to goooo! ~

My existence... is being erased...

2004-08-30T19:55:00.000+08:00

yay! just finished eating dinner... hahax.. well for some unknown reason I suddenly decided to pose infront of the mirror alot today lol... mmm >_> haha I'm sooo fat >_< oh well, must work harder in the gym... getting really pathetic gains in the gym recently actually... I wonder... mabye I should do a review one day and see how much I've really gained?

well, gotta go do pw soon... so I can't really write much today hahax... yeah so I guess I'll just write about what's been bothering me so much...

damn I was really unlucky last night... I went to go bathe and den well ms called me... okay I messaged her later and asked her if she called me by mistake or someth... and this is her reply... "its ok don't have to call back.. wanted to ask you a math question i got is solved. oh n i don't need anymore eng stuff you gave me alot already."

Hahax.... well mabye I'm being oversensitive again... but i dunno... I think mabye the maths question thingy was just so she could tell me she doesn't need me to do the gp thingy already... but I dunno hahax... yeah I think I'm being too oversensitve. *slaps myself*

one thing bothers me thou... I think mabye she's needing me less and less... oh well I guess over time I'll fade more and more from her memory... and I'll finally mean nothing.. I wonder... if she'll reply my letter this time round?..... well all bets say that she wont...

Just A tool...

2004-08-26T22:09:00.000+08:00

hee just watched singapore idol... its sooo cool... hahax wish I had their talent to sing lolx... oh well...

mm. lol you know i was kinda right... everytime I choose to give up something happens... well she smsed me today. hahax but yeah it wasn't for fun (yeah I kinda knew it) she wanted to ask me chem stuff.... sigh...

Photocopying gp notes.... chem...... mm... am I just a tool? I dunno...... well... okay... I guess mabye "I'm thinking too much again...

Judo Grading

2004-08-25T21:51:00.000+08:00

Judo Grading.... mmm. been thinking for awhile whether I should really go for the judo grading... and well I think I'll go for it... from yellow to orange... I think... I'll put everything on the line... this means that if I'm not good enough... I'll never set foot in a competition next year... cos my division will move up one rank if I move to orange belt...

well that means that I'll have to improve like crazy... I heard those who fight in the 2nd league (orange belts and green belts) have at least 2 years of experience... hahax and I'm only like 6 months? about 1/4 of their total experience... will I be able to win them? I really don't know... but I don't think that I'll admit defeat that easily... I'll pratice my techniques more... I wanna learn more and more techniques.. haha I wanna be the "professor" of judo one day, so that I know all the moves in judo and I created new moves for the ones I like... oh well... its a dream anyway...

I'm the lousiest judo player in my club actually... mabye everyone thinks I'm doing this just to show off or try to be special... haix... well I really don't know... mabye its a way of motivating me to move up... and... I'll not wear the orange belt yet even if I pass the exams unless I think I'm ready to really wear it... sigh... oh well... hahax... enough dreaming for now...

Lying to myself?

2004-08-25T21:29:00.000+08:00

Mmm... been sitting around lately and asking myself this question....

"have I been lying to myself?"

mmm...... well its a painful question actually.... and mabye I think the answer is getting closer and closer to a yes... hahax... well if you've been reading this blog (which I think nobody does) you know what I'm talking about...

I've been doing so many things... hoping that mabye she'll like me... but... I kinda started to think about what all my friends have said... like lynette... I remember she said that... it doesn't matter what you do... its who you are that's the most important... hmm... well.. yeah its really true... but then if so... then I've already failed haven't I...

I don't know what I'm doing... doing so many things for her... sacrificing my time.... well my money too... hahax... but that's not the point... well its that.. I dunno, somehow it awoke in me that nothing is ever going to happen... cos its me, haha I'm not what she wants I guess?

Think I need a reality check... who am I that she'll actually like me? hahax... that's right I'm nobody, so that's why she'll never like me,I don't look like jay chou or anything... I'm so lame... I can't speak a good scentence of chinese, I'm not rich like her or have a very warm personality...

I remember what wanjun said to me today... when I visited her during her rehearsals... she said something about me having a new target... hahax well although our school does have many cute girls... I don't think so... she said that most of her guy friends change targets very easily after awhile, and maybe I'm abnormal... why am I so abnormal? I don't know... everytime I just think of it I dont' have the heart to give up..

well...... I dun think I can keep having false hope anymore... what am I supposed to do?... should I end it?... or continue to hold on? everytime I feel like giving up... I dunno? something usually happens.. hahax... but... mmm..... I keep thinking about her everytime I feel like giving up... all her gestures... actions... yeah.. it gets played everytime in my mind... so. sigh.... I dunno... this is totally ripping me apart...

Part.... uhh from where I lost count plus one..

2004-08-22T20:29:00.000+08:00

so... anyway... a few days passed from that day... and yeah I was really bummed cos I was like... you know... just some shadow >_> sigh... so I kinda thought of giving up... again... ^^" yeah I was preparing to write a letter to her asking her if I was disturbing her all that... and mabye I should stay away and all... mm... well yeah... den about an hour later before I finished the letter she called me..

Well... I was really happy at first, den I was a little sad why?... hahax...

she didn't actually call to chit chat haha (okay I knew that when I saw her number on the caller id) but... it wasn't such bad news either... she called and asked me to help her photocopy GP notes from my sch... I was like... errr okay... den I talked to her for another 30 mins before putting down the phone...

but... huh? why will she ask me to do that.. its so weird... am I being used?... hmm.. and its like she has such good friends in my school like huishan or philjin to help her, why ask me?... and the second strange thing is that she was in my school for like the first 6 months shouldn't she have most of the notes too? mmm.... mabye she wants to see if I'm still "attached" to her and if its easy to "shake me off" yet... sigh I dunno I'm confused...

hmm I met her yesterday downstairs her house at the bus stop, well her house is really near the school so it was really convenient hehe :P yeah gave her the notes and we started talking for like 30 mins plus before she had to go... haha still remember what she told me about her puting make up all that cos all the other girls put it in her school ^^"... and she wanted to pay me for the photocopying too, but I made up some story about me steaing someone else's card... haha well..... I dunno hmm... its so tiring to think of what to do next... mabye I should go sleep hahax...

Update again... Part... ughhh I lost count...

2004-08-22T18:57:00.000+08:00

Mmmm... okie finally remad the design on my blog haha until Tessa like commented about my blog till I felt like changing the appearance -__- *pushes tessa away* lol anyway thanks tessa lol if not my blog will still be a dry......... lol nvm... hahax.. :P anyways I hope if anyone is reading, that you like the design hee.

hurm... how long ahve I been talking abot her? haha its seems every post has something about her... hmm... I dunno mabye I'm.... obsessed?

I called her like once... haha after freaking out alot.... lol but weifen managed to psycho me to do it before I chickened out... hahax thanks weifen ^^"... so anyway... I called her and asked for her... she was reading I robot the book... hmmm.... so yeah... I kinda apologised for disturbing her and she said it was ok... so yeah... I kinda went on talking with her ... for about an hour... den... just my luck my dad called in and I told her to wait for me... sniff... but when I changed the call back to her line... she was gone already... she smsed me saying her mom wanted to use the phone... oh well.. haha... I didn't had time to pop the question so, I tried to ask her over sms... and I asked her if she wanted to go out with me to watch the Irobot movie... hehe... well... she said okay and she asked me to invite phil and huishan too (of course) hahax... well was quite happy den, it was about two weeks ago I think... during the national Day holidays yuppy...

I stayed over at fullerton over the weekends! I mean last last week hahax... sis came over to my room with her bf and watched the fireworks from the 8th floor, hehe cos our room was on the 8th floor hehe :P the fireworks was right smack infront of the hotel! yay! anyway... sis and her bf cuddeled in my bed =_=... and her leg was bleeding so my bed was like.... uhhh nevermind... T_T....

right so after the stay at the fullerton... on monday... it was time to go out with her! yay! yeah... was really happy on the way to the cathay where I was going to meet all of em... I bought her a birthday present.... well its a little modified.. bought her a forever friends bear again.. but I made the bear hug a pot of flowers that I made... haha orgami finally came in handy huh? I finally have a use for it after learning if for so many years lol... well.. she liked the present... ( I think... ) and I bought the movie tickets for all the 4 of us.. huishan was late and... I screwed up buying the tix so... we ended up sitting behind all the way next to the toilet =_= cos the seats I bought were like right smack infront... sowee guys....! well... huishan came after awhile and then phil who was sitting with us slowly inched away to the other side leaving me with... yeah you know... but I had a feeling she wasn't too confortable with that but she just kept quiet... man... I feel so guilty... sniff...

okie... so after the movie part was over we were like all outside the cinema... and my stomach was like >_<>_< mannn what a time to happen... hahax... well... I was really embrassed after that actually... I asked all of em if we could take neoprint and it was like this:
Me:"hey hey why not we go take neoprint? so I don't forget how ms looks like"
Ms, Phil, HuiShan: ..........................
*hears the crowd's footsteps and chatter*
Me: -_-""" nevermind.....
Well okay we did take the neoprint and I looked like a D*ck inside but... hahax... man... I was like almost fainted that time... oh well ~_~ after that huishan needed to go for a birthday party, so we helped her to look for a birthday present for her friend and... den we all walked back to the mrt station... well ms wanted to go eat... but then phil and huishan needed to go off.. so she said she wanted to go off too, join her sec school friends at toapayoh to eat... hahax... well.. >_> I think I was more like a shadow in the outing anyway, she only wanted to see huishan and phil... mmm *roll eyes*

Facelift

2004-08-22T02:33:00.000+08:00

Yay... haha finally gave my blog a facelift hehe.. its one of my favourite anime... chobits! haha... kinda cool love story =x...

Yay! err..... mabye?

2004-07-14T21:33:00.000+08:00

hihi, haha its been like 10 days since I last updated.. lotsa stuff has happened..

today I had my chinese oral! it was a total fiasco... lol the passage was so badly read! my friend sabo me =x... he was talking to the teacher so long in front... by the time it was my turn, I completly forgot what I had read in the passage... >_< sigh and I couldnt' read properly.... haha well the worst part was that for the conversation topic... the examiner asked me about the falling birthrates in singapore... but then I thought it was the business power of singapore! lol... and I Started to talk about the business... and he stopped me.. he said "wait! do you understand the question?" lol... den I Said no... he acutally explained it to me... man... he's so kind... if not I'd be dead by now... sniff sniff... thanks man... haha

Okay, anyway haha one of the most major things is that of my exam results lol... okay my maths sotally sucked... I got like... 20/100... lol anyway my final grades are FCBCCB haha to those of you who dunno, my grades spell out a really really vulguar hokkien phrase..... its about a...... lol I'll leave that to your imagination... Haha well, my mom didn't freak like I thought she would.. but she did her fair share of freaking and she said that "during your parents day I wanna see all your teachers!"... okay... that sucks hjaha I hope that nothing bad will havepend and that no teachers will bear a grudge on me after that haha...

Hmm... was thinking of joining the harmonica ochestra to... to help ahmah out since she said that tshe doesn't have enought members for ther club... haha but it was so funny... I kinda knew how to play tyhe harmonica, but then their harmonicas are like so chim! and alot bigger too lol, its like 3 times bigger than mine ^^" so when I went there everyone saw my harmonica and they were like o_o""... lol.. anwyay I don't think they need my help anymore, unless I wanna play octave harmonica... haha mabye I will.. I don't know hee, it looks like the most difficult kind of harmonica to play and my judo isn't doing really well too...

well, speaking of my judo... its doing really bad... I'm becoming from bad to worse... haha I think that my biggest problem in the ring is that I'm too impatient.. I usually do something stupid that makes me in a really bad position and its always cos I wanna take my opponent down really fast... haha really stupid right... I shouldn't be so impatient next time... anyway... all the other judokasin my team are really good... I think unless I come up with something good I won't really win anything... hmm... haha mabye I can make my own secret move? =x... oh well... haha its not bad thinking about it..

ooo! yeah the most exciting thing...... ms finally replied my mail! haha it came yesterday... it was really strange though... its like only one page... sniff... evven though I wrote like 4 pages to her... hah athat's not the strange thing... the strange thing is that the letter was written on the 5th of july... but it was posted on the 10th of july.. lol mabye I'm just being paranoid again.. its probably nothing...

Yay! ExAmS OvErr....

2004-07-03T19:42:00.000+08:00

Oh yeah! the exams are finally over... haha sowee I haven't update for so long! :P sorry ya (if anyone is acutally reading this) haha I was kinda addicted to something =X..

Okok, I was addicted to watching this anime called gundam SeeD haha... Borrowed the whole set from my friend khaiping... hehe thanks khaiping! I'm finding the final fantasy unlimited now... haha will pay you back :'( sniff thanks so much! Gundam Seed's really nice... haha you all should go see it if you can hee

Well anyway, my exams were a total bust :( haha I totally bombed the whole thing... Guess my head was too big haha, I thought I didn't need to study for math and physics like I used to do last time... I used to just take the tests and exams for those two without even studying for them... well this time when I did that, I went in blanked out... haha if my mom finds out she'll totally kill me... sigh, I think she'll freak when she sees my results... its sooo bad, I think this is finally the first time that time did an exam without getting any As... manb... my brother's so talented... I wonder how he can do all his exams last time in NJC and get all As from them... sigh...

Hmm, why am I doing so bad anyway... I take like hours and hours to to do dutorials... how come... am I really that stupid... haha I don't think so... mabye I just lost my motivation for doing things... and mabye I just don't wanna continue anymore... or is it that I'm too distracted.. Mabye... haha I don't know... but I think I'll do some tutorials and I'll observe what I'm doing haha... mabye I'll even video tape myself and see what the hell I was doing that's making me take so darn long to do those tutorials... I don;t know why..I was okay in sec 1 sand 2.. but ever since then my grades have been declinging, and I've been sleeping later and later everyday... why is that? is it because that the stuff is getting harder?... hmm I don't think so... but what ever it is... I'll find out... I'll have to.. or it will be my maker... haha

okay okay enough of the serious stuff hehe... hmm I'm kinda happy! Had a good outing yesterday with my friends... we went to the children's home and we cleaned it up! lol it was super dirty thou... and not fair! the boy's room is like so gloomy... but the girls' rooms were like suuper nice... painted walls and everything.. hee but the best part was that while I was eating... MS messaged me! haha... I dopnm't know.. I kinda had the feeling that she didn't like me around... but hmm... I don't know... just a few days ago she asked me if I had a girlfriend on msn..h aha its probably nothing but... oh well hee :P anyway... jsut wrote and sent her my first letter! yeay! I managed to get her address from her... I picked uip the courage to do it... haha and I was soo lucky! she likes writing... hha cos she has so many friends overseas, so she's like writting all the time...

Hmm.. but there's something that's bothering me thou... whenever I see her friends around school.. they don't really talk to me anyway... haha... I think mabye the're even aviding me... sigh... I don't know... mabye I've done something to offend them... only jingxiong, angeline and hoi ting still talks to me now.. haha the rest... hmm.. :( I dunno... hehe mabye I'm being too sensitive again...h aha max said my blog is full of negative stuff... msut change must change! =x alright alright.... hee I guess that's it for now... haha I'll update again another time... hehe hope you all don't mind all my typo erriors... hehe I was closing my euyes whil I was typing this time hehe, fun!

Review...

2004-06-21T00:38:00.000+08:00

Haha just came back awhile ago from CIP... haha yeah some kinda crazy slacking cip hehe, we just all sat around and waited for like 9:30 to come den we all just helped to clear up the place haha, they gave us 5 hours of CIP... lol woo... man 60 more hours to go... sniff sniff...

HMm....its been like ... I dunno? 4 days since I last chatted with MS haha... don't think she'll ever go online again lol... man I've failed... oh well... mabye I'll just pray that something will happen when she comes back 2 days later... haha... mabye I'll try to message her den >_> oh this is so tiring haha.. me waiting here and waiting..... feel like an idiot, everytime the msn messenger rings I'll like fly to the screen and check :P oh well...

Yayy~! there's judo tommroow.... haha been watching judo championships videos for the whole week... become really inspired now... I'm developing my own secret move.. haha hope it works.. can't wait to try it out tommorow!! I wanna get at least one ippon tommorow... haha haven't gotten that in so long...

MS part 4 - online

2004-06-17T02:24:00.000+08:00

Hmm.... haha nothing much in part 4... its actually the present situation haha... so she's in taiwan now, and I've been waiting like everyday for her to go online so that I could have the chance to talk to her.. so I'm sitting by the computer like an idiot waiting for her to go online... well she does go online for about... once in 3 days? She didn't really go online that frequently because she's fallen sick, she had really bad fever.. ^^" well she did message me one night... it was a strange message though.. on the msn.. She just said that she had a high fever and she just wanted to tell me before she went offline... haha that was strange... mabye she wanted to tell me that so that I'd stop waiting for her online ^^".... oh well.. lol the funny thing was that I had a high fever too... I was really happy she called me the other time and I exerted myself like hell trying to beat the black belt during the exam so I could have a double promotion.... haha but I got really really sick instead...

Well... she's going to come back at around the 22nd or 25th of this month... and after that I don't think she'd ever go online again.. or have the time to... I know she'd at least go online one more time before she comes back ( I hope so) and I've been really debating with myself If I should ask for her real singapore address so I can mail her for real... instead of mailing to her e-mail box which is always full ... butI'm scared she'd be really reluctant or she'd get pissed with me... cos I'm not sure if she thinks I'm bothering her.... haix... what should I do...the time is ticking again.... man.. can't stop thinking about it... :(

MS part 3 - phone calls

2004-06-17T01:48:00.000+08:00

Well, so anyway, she finally left school, and I don't think I'll ever ever see her again sobx... Hmm I was pretty down, cos I wasn't sure I'd hear from her again at all haha so I was pretty depressed.

A few days later, when I was eating in the canteen, one of her friends came to find me, haha I think it was Evelyn yuppy, she gave me this note that ms wrote to me.. Yay! I was pretty happy cos I thought she'd never contact me again haha. Well it was a reply to the letter I wrote to her haha, well she didn't really say anything inside, it was all general stuff hee, but I was kinda happy anyways. I thought of writing back to her, so I tried to e-mail to her but her box was always full ^^"" so I was sad again haha, and I tried smsing her again and again, abut 1 sms everyday about something lol.... I think I was really starting to bother her ^^".. well she didn't reply any of my smses and I'd alrady half given hope about it anyway..

Hmm... well I didn't hear much of her the follong days, her mailbox was really full and my mailbox was really full and my e-mails... I wonder if I should ask her for her real house address in singapore so I can mail her for real... Yeah, nothing much happened for a few days, she didn't go online either haha. I didn't hear from her until one night when I met khaiping, shaoquan, chunhong, aaron and xianghui to go watch Troy hee, when she suddenly called me to ask something strange ^^"... about how to book movie tickets.. Huh? why did she ask me? I mean she could have asked evylyn or something... haha I guess mabye I was her last resort? I wanted to chat with her longer... but then the guys were already looking at me wondering who I was talking to on the phone lolx.. so I decided to end it quicky (dammit...)

lol I kinda regretted ending the call so fast because she didn't really contact me again for the next few weeks and yeah... I got depressed again..

okay, so I was really sad that she was seemingly igonoring me (again) so I was kinda moping all around the house haha didn't really get much work done cos my mind kept drifting about this and that... until on a certain friday, one day before my Judo exam she finally replied my sms haha, she said she'd call me at the airport on saturday (which was the day of my judo exam).. YAY!! I was really happy again hehe I couldn't wait for the next day...

Went to school really early the next day... I kinda forgot why.. was I doing project work? mabye.. I was supposed to meet up with the judo team there anyway so we could all go to hougang seconday school for our exam to get promoted, so I just lazed around the library all day waiting for her call haha I prayed really hard that she'd not call during my judo exam cos I'd really freak >_<

Hee, my prayers were answered when she called me like, an hour before the exam started (phew) talked to me awhile... about harry porter... haha I think we only chatted for 2 minutes before she had to board her plane to taiwan... but I was really glad she called haha I didn't think she'd call me at all actually ^^" but... haha yay... lol... to be continued... stay tuned for part 4? lol... can't believe I said that...

super rushhh

2004-06-16T19:03:00.000+08:00

haha weee! had so much fun the past 2 days lol, even if it was a super rush here and there... woke up early yesterday morning and rushed out to meet weifen and sheena at parkway at 12:00.. hee was pretty fun haha we went to KFC to eat... again... I both of them ordered the 2 piece meal haha... I ordered the buddy meal... its was like double of theirs >_< uhh I was pretty sick after eating that ... haha

Right, anyway we went off later together and roamed around parkway to find some "friendship" thingy we all could buy so that all the four of us could have (the fourth person is mu xuan haha but he couldn't make it on time..) we were like really out of our wits on what to buy... sheena wants it to be "something special".. in the end we went to MPH bookstore to try and make a keychain... but then we couldn't think of a nice word to make it from so we were just standing around ^^"" haha anyway... while they were standing around I made my way to the side and bought one of those stedlaer pens.. you know... the triangle shaped ones they show on tv... hehe so cute ^^

lol... so we wasted lotsa time and den sheena had to rush off for tuition, leaving me and weifen only, and we both decided to go to the chalet together first. Had a really long walk with weifen haha I didn't expect the distance from parkway to costa sands to be sooo long!! Well had a really weird talk with weifen on the way lol, I think it was around 45mins? Hmm... we talked about yeah... meng shu haha... I guess she was curious to know more about her haha... and we talked about her's too :P lolx

okok anyway, we got there after 45 minutes of walking and finally reached the chalet! >_< so tired already haha, so we slacked around the chalet for awhile waiting for sheena's tuition to be over so that she can come join us and ride bikes again lol.. When she came we went to ride bikes >_< except I was really lousy, so sheena and weifen rode on wayyyy ahead of me haha, and chengyi who was with me on another bike was stuck babysitting me making sure I didn't kill anyone ( or myself) riding the bike lol.

I made it in one piece after the bike riding (phew..) and we all went back for the bbq at the chalet. Haha I didn't really stay for the bbq thou cos I figured I'd get nothing again just like last time =x so I walked to then seven eleven with weifen and sheena to get something to eat. Lol by the time we came back, all the food was gone! only 3 chicken wings were left haha and we actually mooched off the other people's food who was going to stay in the chalet after us, hehe, I can't believe they left their food there haha :P

oh well, it was like really late and everyone was like leaving, I was planning to leave with max but then he decided to stay over.. >_< I was really torn whether to stay over or not cos I had judo training the next day at 8 am.. but I figured I stay cos I didn't wnana regret missing out the fun hee.

Shuqin and jiayue wanted to go play pool later on at about 2am and Wenjie, max and xianghui went off immediately to K-box and sang their asses off :P I wanted to join them but by the time they finish it'd be 3am, so I decided to sleep awhile until shuqin and jiayue wanted to go play pool. Well, they wanted to play pool for 2 hours and by the time I'd get back I wouldn't have anymore sleep and I'd surely collapse the next day during judo so I decided to stay back at the chalet with wanlin and chunhong hee, I stayed up and watched a few episodes of naruto.. boy it was so nice! I'm addiced to it haha gonna borrow chunhong's laptop one day and copy it all hee.

I fell asleep and pretty soon it was 6am, and I had to leave for judo training... took a cab home and a cab back to sch... >_< argh spent 12 bucks! man... I wonder if it was worth it? haha mabye I should have came back home last night lolx... anyway.. had great fun! hehe hope they do it again! :P yea!

~Ouchie~

2004-06-15T10:30:00.000+08:00

okay, don't think I'll talk much about MS now haha (not that anyone is listening anyway) had judo training yesterday, we were competing with each other to see who was better and who should represent the school in the national inter schools. Sob sob.. well needless to say I got my butt kicked... haha really bad, my opponent for 3 rounds was my brown belt captain (brown belt is the grade just before black) and he really destroyed me haha I was super scared when I was fighting him... he used uranage on me 3 times mann... my head really took a beating haha... in case you dunno what uranage looks like it looks like that below ==>

Yeah well, I guess you figured that I'm the guy in blue >_< haha it hurt like hell... my neck is aching like mad now, no fairrr I wanted to fight the yellow belt haha.. (not that I'd win him anyway) I dunno... It seems like I haven't thrown anyone for a kind of long time... I went to spar with another of my friend who was like 20kgs lighter than me (I'm 81Kg... yesyes... I'm very fat) and my coach said to him: "take him down! he look good only" =_=""" sniff sniff... oh well.. I guess I need to learn how to attack more, all my friends are calling me mr slowpoke cos I'm really slow at attacking... haha I guess I need to speed up more.. >_< sigh... getting my butt kicked every training sure sucks... kinda feel like giving up sometimes... oh well, guess I'd better try harder huh?

Yay... there's a class chalet later hee have been waiting for it for a longgg time, dunno if I can still rollerskate >_< my legs are pretty sore after fighting for 3 rounds continuously.. Hee, gonna meet weifen later at 12:15 at payalebar... mabye I ought to get packing and write more later if I can still write more... hmm..

MS part 2 - Canteen

2004-06-14T13:43:00.000+08:00

oh well... so the days counted down... 9... 8... 7...6... until it was like the last day... it was sports day I think? I kinda given up hope den cos she was like ignoring all my SMSes... yup... so I prepared a "farewell gift" for her, since she was leaving... haha I put a letter inside too, it was pretty stupid... I crapped all over inside.. but the moral of the story was that I admitted that I liked her inside.. I was like "ahh its over, just give it to her and be done with it... :("
So I set out walking all over the stadium during the sports day when everyone was cheering like hell for the house teams to win haha.. I walked around quite abit until I saw her sitting next to jingxiong and huishan.. Den I messaged Jingxiong if he could ask her to go up to the behind of the stadium (well its pretty near like 2 steps from where she was sitting) to meet me so I could give her "something". He den suggested that I should go to the canteen and he'll ask her to go there and meet me... so I was like "okay I'm going over to the canteen now"
Before long I reached the canteen and I messaged jingxiong again.. telling him that I already reached haha... den I think he tried to pursade MS to come and meet me but then he just said that she didn't wanna come. Well I was really sad haha kinda picturing myself with a small rain cloud over my head lol... Haha so I decided that I will walk up to her and give it to her instead, since I told alex that "I had nothing to loose" lol... yuppy, so I walked over to her house's territory with a big blue package and gave it to her straight haha... she was kinda pretending to be sleeping thou... lol, it was kinda funny I put jingxiong between me and her so that everyone couldn't saw who I was really talking to, den I just handed her the package.
MS: What's this for? Its not my birthday today..
me: Its a farewell gift..
MS: o I see... who is it from?
me: *points to myself*
MS: o its from you?
me: Yuppy
MS: *takes the present*
Well I was feeling kinda humilated then cos all my friends were like staring at me so I just stood up and left haha... I went up to the behind and tried to get back to the canteen but kelvin and weixin stopped me and told me to look behind at MS again..
WeiXin: Hey stop, look look she's opening the present *points to MS*
Well the three of us just stood there watching her opening the present... haha she had a hard time opening it cos I Was really bad at wrapping things lolx... yup... it was a forever friends teddy haha.. she took it out and saw it den she just put it back in the bag. Yup, the show's over, its all over I thought... and I heaved a sigh of relief as I head back to the canteen.... haha was feeling really hungry from all that horsing around trying to give her the present..
I went back to the canteen and played with Kelvin, Weixin, Caveat and WenLong for awhile... haha was playing with kelvin's water bottle I think... den I got a message again.. It was from JingXiong, he said that MS was looking for me and she's walking to the canteen.... my face was like =_=""" uh oh... haha but before I had time to panic she was already standing behind me... lol.. I was kinda wondering why kelvin was suddenly so quiet... Yup... she sat down beside me and she just started talking I think she said she liked forever friends stuff... like their shirts and their bears... haha ^^"... yup... we talked for an hour I think... den we walked back to the stadium together and the sports day was like over...
MAnnn I was supper hungy... haha I didn't eat the entire morning cos I was too busy talking to MS haha... oh well, I headed to macdonald's later with yunyi and fredric... lol frederic was challenging yunyi to win him at chinese chess... well yunyi lost every match I think... wonder how many ice cream cones does yunyi own fredric? Hmmm...

MS

2004-06-14T13:25:00.000+08:00

Hee I guess this is my first real post... haha haven't really got the time to go post... also no motivation... lol who will read this anyway? Well, been feeling really depressed lately and a friend of mine told me I'll feel better if I wrote a letter about what I'm feeling... so I decided to blog... haha >_>
Hmm... its one more hour to judo training, been really slack lately... the results of the elections are comming out later... so by today we'll know who's the captain and vice captain etc.. haha I ran for vice captain.. hope I get it... there's so many other better people thou... and I really screwed up my speech I said:
" Hey all I hope you all vote for me. My vision for the judo team is to build a big family, where everyone has the spirit of judo, so everyone will be able to live, eat, sleep and breathe it withought any pain at all"
WHAT THE HELL AM I SAYNG? Well I dunno, its really stupid actually... I think nobody got what I meant and I really screwed my my votes... lol.. even I don't get it... oh man ... I bet desmond or daryl will get it or something, I'm a lousy Judokan anyway >_>
okok... think I should get down to what's been bothering me so much.. Hmm but I don't know how to start it either..
Right her name's Meng Shu (lets call her MS from now on), haha I think all of you who's reading this know where its going... yup.. I like her.. First saw her in the bio make up praticals in the first week of college this year haha, I didn't like her den, kinda thought she was kinda cute only but only that..
It was only a few months later that I really started to notice her...mabye somewhere around may? Haha This is kinda like one month after I broke up with my ex... hmm mabye I was kinda wounded? so I noticed her.. Den I heard some of my friends talking about her and I found out she was going to leave college very soon.. haha like in 30 days time? So I was kinda shocked and I wanted to get to know her more.. lol... so I kinda used my connections, I knew some of the guys in her class and I started hanging with them... kinda weird thou... my friend in her class, Jingxiong said :"dude what are you doing here man? why don't you hang with your other guy friends?" lol... I guess it was pretty awkward...
So I was like sitting at her friends table every recess, well mabye with caveat too, cos her class is where all his good band friends are like HoiTing and Angelene, I made quite good friends with them haha >_< Well, I sat at her table for only 5 times actually.. and I never talked to her at all when I did, I was like always talking to caveat and angelene or hoiting lol... pretty wasted huh...
Well it went on for quite awhile until one day I decided to add her to my MSN contacts.. haha I guess she suspected that I liked her from that point on.. Lol she asked me to lend her some notes one day.. and I put on my thick skin and asked her for her handphone number... she was like "why do you want it?" " I don't on my handphone anyway" so I just looked back.... haha speechless... and she just took my phone and keyed her number in.. haha that was like... 9 more days before she left? I think... I was kinda happy then haha...
okay its getting pretty lengthy haha... hmm... well all my friends said I should message her... well so I did... but it did no good... haha she only replied my messages like twice? den she kinda ignored all my other messages... well guess she was trying to avoid me...
Thats how I spent my last 9 days... messaging her something everyday although she didn't reply sigh...

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Wee! endzone.blogspot.com hmm just set up my blog account... no idea how to use this though.. T_T...