phewww just woke up from my deep sleep... haha wanted to go to the gym just now! but arghh I overslept and I decided to sleep all the way till dinner time just now lolx... totally ignored tessa's sms soweee tessa! >_< *covers my head*

hee but oh well I kinda restored my energy already I'm totally amped up now! been really tired the past few days cos I kept rushing the pw assignments... now all that's left to do is the oral presentantion and the group project file... haha everything's in a mess I hope I can sort everything out in time lolx...

Arr! the chinese A level exam is comming up! but I still have so much pw to do... hmm I think I better not just concentrate on pw or I'm surely dead... yer! I better get some chinese done everyday before I do my pw... can't afford to fail this exam lolx... (everyone knows that I can't stand chinese) all I have to do is to tahan 15 more days with it and then its sayonara to exams! haha but I dunno what I'll do witht the language thou... its just like my teacher said.. its kinda like a waste to just forget it... oh well I think of what I wanna do when I DO pass the test lolx... hmm lets see... what should I do? the exam's on the 5th of november... so todays 23 oct! means I have.... 13 more days! oh my.... hmmmm what should I do! better plan tonight.. dun wanna crash and burn again hahax...

Yupps... anyway I was in the library today doing my pw and I was so distracted! lolx sheng gao was like there saying "danny dun like that I know you not interested in doing de" lolx.... well *looks at the floor guilty* hahax I was a lill distracted... lol... cos I was like looking and looking at all the.......... ahhh! *slaps myself* lolx... mabye I was thinking too much hehe

ooo anyways! later going to meet Max!! yay haven't talked to him in like so long! haha going to the market again to eat supper together hehe...


euwe . 7:50 PM ...................
Yay! I'm backkkk haha I haven't been here in ages.... okies okie well yer just did finish my promotional exam not too long ago haha I got really sucky grades... and I'm like the worst in my class now... so I dunno... the teachers are like picking the hell outta me... jsut today miss sim was like asking me so many questions left and right and I had to think so much.... ughhhh >_< so baddd they all bulliee mee...

hahax oh well serves me right for doing so bad on my papers... arh hahax I've been thinking... my blog looks so sad! well I orginally designed it to be happy, but then I dunno I kinda made it all black and sad looking hahax ^^"

hee Judo trainings have started again! I feel so cool now... I dunno I feel like my life is not complete without actually throwing somebody.... I'm a judoaddict >_< die die I'm so violent... hope I dun go and find fights in the army hehe

arr! Been going to the gym more! yea... I decided if I wanna get more mass I need to go to the gym more frequently... lol but everytime I tell tessa that she's like always asking me to get a tan ^^" sniff am I that white? :( mmmxx hope I dun look too ghey... like a small boy? *sulk*

yer... anyway haha I always include something about.... ms! yer... been talking to her recently... but not alot... I wonder if I should call her again? arr I dunno seems kinda awkaward for me to call her actually, like she knows I'm trying to stick to her... I wonder if her eye twitches everytime I call?


euwe . 9:10 PM ...................
arghhh! yesterday night was a total failure... sniff I'm so upset over it... :(

okay... so I set out to call ms at I think 8:30 yesterday... (after hesistaing for over 30 mins ^^") lol... butttt sighhh... kinda wanted to chat with her... but I ended up screwing myeslef to the ground... sniff...

She said... she had a physics question to ask me... and I said okay... sighhhh and it was such an easy problem too... I can't believe I couldn't answer it! well so she said she'll go try and give me sometime to think bout it and if she still can't get it she will call me backkk..... arrhg... I wish I could have solved the problem there and then sighhh :(

Well needless to say she didn't call back hahax, she smsed me instead and said that she's going to take a nap first.... anyway at that time I was really bummed that I couldn't solve it... I still remember what she said to me "its kinda a really simple question, but you're blowing it out of proportion" lolx.... well she did come online later... but only for a few secs... cos she said there was something wrong with her computer...

Sniff... I seem to be someone where she can ask her homework questions... mmx... I think... once I'm unable to answer them... I'll have no more reason to exist... den... mabye she wun talk to me anymore?... arrh..... I dunno..... sighh..... mabye I should call her one more time to see if that's really what I am to her...? mmx. but when...?... :(

Well on another note... my d/ling speeds are kinda good these days hehe, going to finish d/ling tenjo tenge soon! yea!! can't wait to see it, it has really cool fighting scenes... okie okies I think I better go now hahax... my nus friend is comming soon..


euwe . 1:23 PM ...................
haha okay I'm confused again... mxx... just a few days ago ms messaged me over the hp again... she told me that she dyed her hair.. mmx... I was kinda confused thou... I thought she'd given me that "warning" already and I won't hear from her forever again?

Well I replied her message... but she didn't reply back... guess she sent it by mistake... mmx mabye I should call her this weekend to see what's her real reaction..

Lol okay today I was like almost dead when I went to school... I had this super big black rings around my eyes and I look like a panda >_<... I really shocked one girl today lolx... she was from S1D I think... yuppy... thomas's class.. cos she was like outside the toilet and I was waiting for sheng gao to come out... so I was doing => o_o..... and staring into the thin air, but she was like infront of me and lol... she kinda thought I was staring at her hahax with such black eyes summore... =x ooo man so paiseh ^^""

Arr... going to download finish my samurai 7 soon... hehe can't wait to watch it.. Tenjo Tenge too!... hahax, but I haven't been studying these few days *hangs head in air* hahax I hope tommorow will be better... now that the pw is almost over... oh well... time to sleep! nite nite! >_<............


euwe . 1:40 AM ...................
yeahh! just came back from my judo grading... lol... it was so cool hahax... I was like a loner there and like everyone noticed straight away... one guy from nyjc only lol den they all started talking to me... I talked to 2 RI guys and this SJI guy called sherman, lol he was really friendly... and there was this auntie from Island Judo Club who keep trying to feed me lolx ^^" she was like giving bread to all her members and I was just standing there den she was like asking "are you hungry? are you hungry?" lol... well I'm really touched that mr tan and mrs poh came to accompany me for the grading sniff sniff >_< I must really go thank all of you arr...

okay okay anyway I went thru the kata very smothly, cos I partnered this very pro SJI guy lol I didn't even apply force and I seem to throw him already, he was like a jumping expert hahax sherman's introduction ^^" okay the terrifying part was the sparing part, cos I got paired up with this 100kg+ RI guy lol he was kinda like Andre haha. well I was lucky he used harai goshi (sweeping hip) and that's my specialty at countering, so I countered with tani otoshi 3 times and got 2 yokos, den I pinned him down and got a wazari ^^"... well the last one wasn't so clear cos we both fell at the same time so I didn't who the wazari was for oh well lol but I still won hahax ^^" phew! He was really strong thou, he twisted my arm a little when I was going for the tani otoshi but I held on.. arr it's really pain now... oh well... no provional status for me! hehe

right... just 2 days ago I got this strange question from ms... well let you all see it... (its been slightly edited, but the conversation starting and ending was the same)

ms : i got a qn for u, r friends more important to u, or girlfriend?
Dan: har?? why do you suddenly ask me this? haha taking a survey for your pw?
ms: which one's more important? just tell me
Dan: erm erm ^^" *sweats*, you mean... if lets say there comes a time when I can only have one?
Ms: err, not that serious
Ms: sort of, ok so which one
Dan: I'm not very sure. but I think its girlfriend ^^"
Ms: hmm, icic
Dan: lol what survey are you doing? hehe my friend asked me that too, he was doing on some marriage thingy hahax
Ms: but,
Ms: gf,
Ms: u break up
Ms: friends, more probable to stay
Ms: like friends forever, rite?
Dan: hmmmx... wah, your survey is really difficult hahax... mmx
Dan but den... I dun think I'll be able to love my friends as much as a gf... cos I think my gf will do the same for me? hahax I dunno I think so
Ms: oic, ya but.... hmm.... dunno
Dan: hahax, well... actually... friends and gf... they are both friends, a gf, is just like a special type of friend, yuppy
Dan: hahax you like someone in sch? hehe
Ms: no
Ms: no one cute
Ms: so sad
Ms: nway i gotta go now
Ms: cya, bye
Dan: erm okie den! hahax what a strange survey you're doin hahax, take care den! see ya!

mmx what is the purpose of asking me this? haha is it really a survey? well I was kinda bluffing that I thought it was a survey so I could stall time... mmx... well mabye its a warning... she was like trying to convince me that friends are better... she said like "friends are forever" or something... and she like asked me pretty hastily... so she doesn't wanna talk... sigh... mabye she's had enough?


euwe . 7:41 PM ...................
Ahhh... just woke up a couple of minutes ago... hee... arr yesterday night was such a bad night... haha I mean in the study sense... I spent like all my time on the net talking and talking... sss... I think thoday morning I better study hard... to make up for my slacking yesterday...

haha was talking to huijuan last night about my judo experiencce with philjin, lol I got really beat by him... it was 11-2 I think.... 2 me of course... haha... well after the 5th round I know I couldn't win anymore, I was so drained of energy that I couldn't even win phil in newaza >_< okay okay... but then I went to try to observe him more in the next 6 rounds and I found out many things hehe.. okay okay but I won't bore anyone with the details... but basically I'm going to develop a move called Kaiten... hahax need to do some research on it first and check if the physics are right..

mmx listening to josh groban's music now... been listening to his singing since 2 days ago when I started ripping his album from the net hehe, so niceee! okay okay but I'm broke so I cant buy his full album.. oh well >_>

hehe watched full metal panic just now... so cool ^^" the guy inside is so devoid of emotions... haha kinda wish I was like him.. oh well ... okie okie me gotta stop crapping hahax... offf to work!


euwe . 9:43 AM ...................
arrr! this is a repeat post... darnnnn just now wrote that post... got deleted!! :'( sniffx....

okay okay let me just continue the story from just now... so that day I didn't talk to her... but this is what she said to me... well my nick was "sniff I miss you, please don't ignore me.."

sooo she said:
haa who do u miss
ur gf?
hmm ok u busy
talk to u later them
then
gotta play the piano
cya
bye

yer... I was kinda bitched that I missed the chance to talk to her... so I kinda took out my frustration by talking to tessa... sowee tessa!... I was complaining to her so muchhh..

mmx... to my surprise she came back later at night... and I had a 1 hour chat with her on the msn hehe... kinda happy... but can't help feeling that I'm actualling disturbing her... I think I'm assing her too much... its like verytime she's online I'm always messagin her... well she's kinda online now and yer... I messaged her... but all she said was hi... and no more response?... oh well... mabye she's busy..

so anyway she went online again mysteriously on sunday afternoon... and we had a really REALLy short conversation (the ones witht he "=" are the words she said)

heya!
= :)
hahax, doing research on your essay?
= typing it
ahhh I see... okies I think I betta not disturb you den! ^^" talk to ya another time when you're not busy hee
= wat u doing
haha me slacking around, just downloading josh groban's music hee, have you heard it?
= heard one or two i think
= nice singer
haha yeah! he rocks hahax I've only got one song thou >_< trying to get his album from the net now hehe
where do you hear your music from?
= i dont really listen to music
= my cousin's bf burns some for me
hahax except your own right? :P
= n i got some real old ones
= tats all
= gotta go now k
= bye
hahax
= take care
sure
= cya
take care den ^^
see ya

I don't know... am I really irritating? like keep trying to contact her... I don't know if she's resisting or not... I'll never know... but I have the hunch that she is... cos yer... she doesn't like reply my letters or smses anymore... sigh...

oh well.. she's not answering me on the msn anymore.. think I'll just sit here and wait den..

euwe . 6:23 PM
haha... I'm thinking again... very boring right... hope I'm not boring everyone out who's reading this ^^"...

yer... okay she's online now... but in away mode, haha yer its quite obvious right? if not I wun be here typing hehe... yer okay so I think I should continue on what happened that day.. so yeah... it was her and I missed my chance to talk to her... was pretty sad.... I still remember what she said....
okay my nick was " sniff I miss you so much, don't ignore me" yer.. okay you all know what I mean by that nick hahax ^^"... so she said...

haha who do you miss?
your gf?
ok you busy
well gotta go play the piano now
talk to you later
cya
bye

well I was going to explode den cos I was like...... "aHHHH! how could I miss that chance?" so I smsed her something hahax... well mabye I should have done that... I think I said something like....

"sorry sorry I was lying down on the bed, so I didn't see your message. haha as for who I miss, I think mabye you know =x, okay okay don't disturb you already, hahax know you're getting more and more busy these days"

arr.... that was such a bad move... =_= *slaps myself with a frying pan*....

okay... there was no reply after that... (yer she usually doesn't reply my smses anyways... ) so I was a little sad... den I was like ranting in tessa's msn screen about how stupid I was. Sorrry sorrrry tessa!! *bows*

mmx but I didn't go completely crazy... cos later on... to me surprise she came back online!... yer... and I talked to her for... around an hour... lol... kinda happy... my mom wasn't, cos she kept calling me and asking me stuff but I didn't answer properly.. ^^" lol guess I was too engrossed in talking to ms...

hmmx okay soo that's that... and the next day... on sunday... she came online again... hahax dunno why she come online so many times this week ^^... welll I tried to talk to her again, I was scared thou... its like everytime she comes online I'll try to talk to her... think I'm really disturbing her and assing her... welll anywayyyy here's how the conversation went... it was quite short... (the bold ones are the ones that she said)

heya!
:)
hahax, doing research on your essay?
typing it
ahhh I see... okies I think I betta not disturb you den! ^^" talk to ya another time when you're not busy hee
wat u doing
haha me slacking around, just downloading josh groban's music hee, have you heard it?
heard one or two i think
nice singer
haha yeah! he rocks hahax I've only got one song thou >_< trying to get his album from the net now hehe
where do you hear your music from?
i dont really listen to music
my cousin's bf burns some for me
hahax except your own right? :P
n i got some real old ones
tats all
gotta go now k
bye
hahax
take care
sure
cya
take care den ^^
see ya

okay... looks like it was longer than expected... hmmx... so she wasn't that busy after all ^^" ? yer.... there was another conversation later thou but I dun think I'll torture anyone to read it hahax...

haix... so I dunno... I think there's no feeling about me in her... think she can't even remember any stuff I told her at all... haix... what should I do? *thinks hard...*

okay anyway, I just cameback from judo. hahax I fought philjin lolx... i think I fought him 11 times... he totally kicked my butt... I won him twice only by luck... so after the 5th round I think I couldn't win anymore... so I decided to go learn as much as possible from it... well I did learn something very important hehe... its an idea which I'm developing now... its called a "circuit of attack" hahax... alright I wun bore you all...

mmx... doesn't look like ms is going to "unaway" her msn anytime soon... oh well think I'll just sit here an wait den...



euwe . 5:58 PM ...................